Sometimes, I think drunkenbatman just needs a cup of hot chocolate and a blankie.

Just wanted to give a warning so as not to startle loyal readers, but there are going to be a flurry of posts later today about Evening @ Adler, the shirts, all that stuff that I need to catch you up on. Heavy emphasis on the Evening @ Adler stuff, which I've been trying to keep quiet about to lessen the attendance issues. I need you to bear with me during this final leg, as my brain is full. I'm officially overwhelmed.

I'm used to full days, but this is unholy -- I'm straining to pull together all the little details (with some help) on all the things that need to happen behind the scenes so no one I'm leaving open messages in my Dock every evening which I have to get through before I fall asleep, and another 10 or so I open and throw there which I make myself get through before I brush my teeth and put on the coffee...

Let me put it this way -- my chat logs showed 114 separate people messaged me over the seven days, and there might be 25 or so that are actually in my list, the rest are people who see a post and have to tell me why I'm wrong, or why I'm right, or want my opinion on something completely unrelated to what I'm trying to focus on. There's nothing wrong with it, but the communication channels for the site are there from the days of 13 loyal readers and just don't scale. Yeah, I could just make up a new one and notify everyone I know so I don't fear the barrage when I login, but I don't really have the cycles to mess with it.

You have no idea how demoralizing it can be when you're two weeks behind on your favorite tv shows, and haven't even been able to browse your feeds for three days (I love my feeds) and someone gets up your craw because you can't devote head space to their speculation about xyz or they get annoyed because they messaged you a week earlier and expect you to know who they are and what they talked to you about. You have to answer, but that engenders more replies, and even when they're cool with it you can tell they're disappointed.

That wears on you too, because I've been there, but right now its a treat if I get to eat before 9pm and not at the computer or phone. Minor diversions that make you laugh can make or break your day, because everything in else in your day is all about the same things.

Things like the last posting show the haze -- it's the kind of thing I'd think but normally wouldn't post as-is, because my raised eyebrow would be taken for some kind of condemnation. I mean, even when I think things are crystal, some people are going to find a way to completely miss the fucking point, but general fuzziness often leads to general ugliness. I don't care if people disagree with me, as that's healthy, but I do care if they completely miss the point as that means I've screwed up somehow.

One of the more common misconceptions of computers involves multitasking, which people imagine as the computer doing multiple things at once. This generally isn't the case, but rather an illusion -- it's spending small, finite amounts of time on one task, then looping to another, then eventually getting back to the original. If your computer is fast enough, it looks like its doing it all at once, but the more tasks you layer the more it'll bog down until things aren't happening in real time.

If you have certain tasks that just have to get done within a specific time period, you need to either get a faster computer or limit the tasks, otherwise you're doing bits of everything but nothing is actually getting done. With only ten days left to Evening @ Adler, this is pretty much where I'm at -- my head is full. Some of this is my own fault. I was already strapped, and everyone who knows me knows my time management already sucks as I get too focused.

I should have delegated more, but this project is a first and I'm making much of it up as I go. Stuff like handling the RSVPs probably could have been done by someone else, or making sure participants have an idea of where to get a hotel and how to get to the place. All sorts of stuff.

It's all going to get done, but my lack of foresight -- and, um, that this is all being thrown together in like a month -- means the next week is going to be a grind. Yes, I could throw people at it now, but that's like throwing programmers at a project that's behind; it often means it'll just take longer as they have to get up to speed. Be crystal -- I'm not complaining. It's a serious labor of love that aligns six ways to Sunday with all my current goals for the site and the community and just what can be done.

I'm just asking you to keep in mind that I'm one guy, and there are about a hundred things you could get pissed at me for besides the lack of responsiveness or feeling like I'm blowing you off. It's not personal, and just one of many casualties, like seeing Serenity a week after it was out and a hundred promises laying by the road to October 21st.

I'm paying attention, and people are keeping in the loop on what I need to be in the loop on, and if something gets to my inbox it'll get seen -- but just bear with me until after next Friday.

yummy alcohol posted button Posted by drunkenbatman
    October 11, 2005, at 11:57 PM


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