Goodbye Mr. Reagan
Watching the Reagan services has been a really sad thing for me. Beautiful and moving ceremonies. Most of my feelings about Reagan are wrapped up in my childhood... I'm able to remember the wall coming down, and those images are all in there, but the biggest memory is of the Challenger tragedy.
It happened in winter, and I was about 7 years old, and remember just coming in from playing out in a big snow bank with my friends when it was on tv. We had one of those big console televisions that sat on the floor, and I have this large pixelated image of Challenger exploding in my mind because I was kneeling so close to the TV with my hand on the screen. As a child it was up there with when my parents got divorced, or some other things happened. It just wasn't supposed to happen, your view of the world had just changed, and there was this profound feeling of confusion.
It was a really personal thing to kids at the time, although I may have been unusual. You have to remember that this was the first time a schoolteacher was going into space, and pretty much every kid new about it because the schools were hyping it. There were posters of her in the hallways and she'd been talked about in detail in class. We knew about her family. I can still see those posters of her with the crew and pictures of her with her family in my head.
That night Reagan was on TV and we were called in to watch, and he gave a short address to the nation. This was the part that really got me as a kid:
"And I want to say something to the schoolchildren of America who were watching the live coverage of the shuttle's take-off. I know it's hard to understand, but sometimes painful things like this happen. It's all part of the process of exploration and discovery. It's all part of taking a chance and expanding man's horizons. The future doesn't belong to the fainthearted; it belongs to the brave. The Challenger crew was pulling us into the future, and we'll continue to follow them."
Because he was speaking from his desk, as a child you really got a sense that he was taking time out from everything to specifically take you into consideration and try to explain what was going on. It put things into a context to where it made sense, and the way it was delivered... after hearing it, you just kind of knew it was a sad day, but that it was going to be ok.
He made things make a semblance of sense that day to a kid who was confused and didn't really understand what was going on, and for that I'm very thankful. I just felt like he'd made this very personal connection to me as a kid, to the point where I ended up spending weeks drawing a picture and sending it off to him saying thank you.
Awhile later I recieved in the mail a signed picture of him riding a horse along with a short note with kind words saying he was glad he helped. Now that I'm older I'm sure it was some aide or staff member who actually wrote out the note and threw the picture in the mail, but as a kid I just couldn't believe the president had taken time out of his day. Looking back I have to laugh, as I think in my head he was sort of a family friend at that point. There was an approachableness to him that was just appealing.
To those 'protesting'... do you really, really feel the need to protest at this man's funeral? There will be plenty of time in the weeks, years and decades ahead to debate supply-side economics and his place in history. That isn't what today is about.
If you aren't able to wrap your head around that, try to remember that this is someones father, grandfather, friend, and husband, and let the hate go for a day. In the years to come when you're going over your deeds you'll wish you had.
Comments (8)
Posted by: eco2geek at June 11, 2004 10:33 PM
Ah, yes, President Reagan. I turned 18 the year he was elected, and, still very much under my parents' conservative Christian sway, voted for him. Sigh.
The good: The Wall coming down. Nuclear arms reductions.
The bad: James Watt. Ed Meese. Oliver North. (Etc.) Iran-Contra. Voodoo Economics. Star Wars.
The ugly: American involvement in Nicaraugua (and saying the Contras were the moral equivalent of the Founding Fathers). The air traffic controllers' strike.
Once my wife and I took a tour of the California state capitol building in Sacramento. Each governor gets to choose a portrait artist to paint him. (Jerry Brown's portrait is quite different from all the rest.) The tour guide said they had to move Reagan's portrait to a secluded spot (in a stairwell) and put it under plastic because it was vandalized so often.
It's hard not to have strong feelings about Reagan, one way or the other.
Posted by: Darth Daver at June 12, 2004 08:20 AM
I enjoyed reading your blog. It is encouraging (and surprising) to see good sense, kindness and compassion on an Internet that is too full of hateful, idiotic blatherings hidden behind anonymity.
I know it is discouraging to see that people are so savage and tactless about a man's death and unappreciative of what he accomplished for the US and the world. Just remember there are a lot of people with mental, emotional and educational problems in the world. Many of them are just children craving attention. Many are liberals who are bitter that Reagan succeeded so spectacularly while their own candidates (Johnson, Carter and Clinton) failed. Their actions contradict the standards they claim to support.
Don't dwell on their ignorant parrotting of commentary masquerading as news from mass media owned by wealthy people with their own selfish, extreme agendas. It only leads to despair on the state of the "human" race. There are still a lot of good people out there, as you have shown. Most of them are just too busy working and supporting a family to respond to this spewing of nonsense and hate.
Posted by: mennonot at June 12, 2004 02:23 PM
Yet another well written and thoughtful piece. I'm impressed.
I was in kindergarten when the Challenger blew up and I still remember coming in the door from school and my mom saying that the shuttle with the teacher on had blown up. We didn't have a TV at the time, so the most vivid mental picture I have is of the dark kitchen and the feeling of sadness and immensity. The closest thing our generation has to JFK getting assasination I guess.
And although I'm wasn't really old enough to know why, I was a big fan of Reagan too. I remember when Bush I got elected it felt wierd, 'cause Reagan as president was all I'd ever known. I definitely had a warm fuzzy in my heart for the old guy. Regardless of what I've come to think of his politics since then, he'll always be the president I grew up on.
Posted by: Ibnsina at June 13, 2004 10:52 AM
Hey, it's okay - he got me with the hand-written letter too.
(What, no hard bitten cynicism?)
Posted by: anna at June 17, 2004 04:21 PM
interesting that you should mention the challenger explosion in connection with your memories of reagan. i don't remember seeing him on tv, because i was too busy staring up at the remnants of challenger and the booster rockets streaking across the sky above my junior high school playground. traumatic indeed.
well, at least you found something nice to write about reagan. i couldn't. but i do have real nice things to say about his wife, who seems to have undergone an incredible transformation during the past twenty years. i'm completely able to work up sympathy for the man's family, but that's about it. nice job on this entry - it shows some class (does that make me classless?).
Posted by: Steve at July 6, 2004 11:41 PM
My memories of Reagan are as a child too. I was 8 when he was elected. Without him I would not have the experience of being an 8-year-old kid whose family was kicked out of their house.
I guess I'm not really grateful for that.
Posted by: Cole Tierney at November 22, 2004 10:41 AM
Nice read. Thanks.
I had just gotten out of the army when Challeger blew up. In the army I had the honor of servering under Reagon as a drummer in the US Army Fife & Drum Corps. Part of our duty was performing at pesidential arrival ceremonies at the white house (about once a month). One time Reagon went around the formation before the ceremony and thanked us all for our service. That was cool (even if it was an election year ;-).
http://www.ogfdc.org/pictures/index.php?pictureID=110
(Yes, I use to wear a wig for a living :)
http://www.ogfdc.org/pictures/index.php?pictureID=107
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Cole








Just another sucker on the vine... have you ever yet protested at all the people's funerals he caused? Even after all these years?
You should come to bury Caesar, not to praise him.
America, get a grip. Stick Ronald Reagan in google and read. Or, better yet, buy some books and read 'em.